SANDIK KOKUSU
Ge\u00e7mi\u015fi, eski g\u00fcnleri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde canlan\u0131verdi birden haf\u0131zamdaki o sand\u0131k\u2026
Bizim evimizde yatak odas\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fi\u015fmez e\u015fyas\u0131yd\u0131 o ceviz sand\u0131k, ceviz miydi acaba,
\u015fimdi karars\u0131z kald\u0131m, daha \u00e7ok me\u015feye yak\u0131nd\u0131 sanki rengi, kal\u0131n bir cila tabakas\u0131yla
kapl\u0131yd\u0131 ve el girebilecek gibi anatomik bir tutama\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131. En \u00f6nemlisi de \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131
ne kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rabilirdim ne de i\u00e7ine bakabilirdim \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc yasakt\u0131\u2026 Hep
i\u00e7indekilerini merak eder dururdum \u00f6nce anneme sorard\u0131m, sonra anneanneme. Her
ikisinden de ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m cevap zaman\u0131 gelince g\u00f6r\u00fcr, dokunursundu\u2026 K\u0131z \u00e7ocuklar\u0131na,
gen\u00e7 kad\u0131nlara s\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 kendili\u011finden vermez sand\u0131k. E\u015flik\u00e7isi olmadan da
a\u00e7\u0131lamazd\u0131. Sonraki ku\u015fa\u011fa emanet edilene kadar annenin, anneannenin, babaannenin
himayesinde kal\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inden bir \u015fey al\u0131naca\u011f\u0131 zaman heyecandan kalbim h\u0131zla atar,
bo\u011faz\u0131m kururdu. Annem sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne diz \u00e7\u00f6ker, adeta usulca t\u00f6rensel bir edayla
kald\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r say\u0131labilecek kapa\u011f\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inden ah\u015fapla naftalin kar\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bir koku
y\u00fckselir, i\u00e7eri\u011fi daha da esrarl\u0131 ve gizemli k\u0131lard\u0131. \u00d6yle bir sayg\u0131l\u0131 el hareketiyle al\u0131rd\u0131
ki annem i\u00e7indekileri bana sanki sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131yormu\u015fta ibadet ediyormu\u015f gibi gelirdi.
O zamanlar gen\u00e7ti, bense ufak ve merakl\u0131 bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu. \u0130\u00e7inde annemin gen\u00e7 k\u0131zl\u0131k
hayallerinin, baba evinin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n, belki de k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hayallerinin
yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemez, sand\u0131ktakileri g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in sab\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131kla can atard\u0131m, \u201chaydi,
haydi\u201d a\u00e7al\u0131m diye d\u00fcrterdim.
Kim bilebilir\u2026
Belki de acele etmemin ve heyecan\u0131m\u0131n nedeni anneme anneannemden miras kalan
bu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n benim do\u011fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m zamanlar\u0131ndan bir ipucu ele ge\u00e7irmekti.
Birg\u00fcn anneannem bu gizemli sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z ucuyla g\u00f6stererek art\u0131k a\u00e7mak i\u00e7in vaktinin
geldi\u011fini ima etti\u2026 O g\u00fcn evde kimse yoktu ben, annem ve misafirimiz anneannemdi.
Annem sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na oturdu, anahtar\u0131 soktu uzun zamand\u0131r dokunulmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in
\u00fczeri hafif\u00e7e toz tutmu\u015ftu eliyle tozunu ald\u0131\u2026 Gizemli sand\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ise etraf\u0131
de\u011fi\u015fik bir koku sard\u0131, bu kokuyu daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 almam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 burnum, anneannem
ba\u015f\u0131ndaki oyal\u0131 beyaz bezi ile hafif\u00e7e ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yukar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sallad\u0131 ve sand\u0131k kokusunu
i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekti\u2026 Annem, i\u00e7indeki \u00e7eyizleri incitmeye k\u0131yamaz, ok\u015far gibi dikkatlice
dokundu. Annem sanki nesilden nesile miras kalm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na, o yazmalar\u0131, \u00e7evreleri,
boh\u00e7alar\u0131, havlular\u0131, oyal\u0131 grepleri, geleneksel tak\u0131lar\u0131, mevl\u00fctl\u00fck bezleri, elbiselik
kuma\u015flar\u0131, gelinli\u011fini havaland\u0131rma bahanesiyle, iki eliyle birden altlar\u0131na kayd\u0131rarak
\u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 ve koklad\u0131. Sa\u011f\u0131nda solunda g\u00fcve yeni\u011fi, leke var m\u0131 diye inceledi. Bir s\u00fcre
dal\u0131p uzaklara gitti. Kim bilir neler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc? Odaya derin bir sessizlik \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc.
Anneannemin g\u00f6zlerinden s\u00fcz\u00fclen ya\u015flar\u0131 fark edince dalm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fum bo\u015fluktan
uyand\u0131m ve adeta kendime geldim\u2026 G\u00f6zleri nemli bana bu e\u015fyalar\u0131n hik\u00e2yesini<\/p>\n\n\n\n
anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, \u201cK\u0131z \u00e7eyiziyle do\u011far.\u201d k\u0131z\u0131m dedi. Israrla sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7indeki
\u00e7eyizlikleri \u00fczerime denettirdi. Gelinlik k\u0131z \u00e7a\u011f\u0131na erdi\u011fimde bu \u00e7eyizleri giderken
alaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yledi, kulaklar\u0131ma inanamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m\u2026 Annem, bir i\u00e7 \u00e7ekip ayn\u0131 t\u00f6rensel
hareketle sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n koynuna b\u0131rak\u0131verdi \u00e7eyizleri.
Anlad\u0131m ki; sand\u0131k, \u00e7eyiz sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 sadece kad\u0131na ait olan e\u015fyalardan biridir. O
zamanlar duyup da anlamland\u0131ramam\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fum \u201cK\u0131z \u00e7eyiziyle do\u011far.\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc,
\u015fimdilerde idrak ettim. Bir hanedeki t\u00fcm kad\u0131nlar\u0131n, \u00f6zellikle de annelerin ellerinden
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmedikleri danteller, i\u011fne oyalar\u0131 ve \u00f6rg\u00fc \u015fi\u015flerinin hikmetini a\u00e7\u0131k eder. K\u0131z\u0131n
\u00e7eyizine s\u00f6z gelmesin diye, ince i\u015flerle \u00f6rselenmi\u015f parmaklar\u0131n, feri ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zlerin
hesab\u0131n\u0131 tutar sand\u0131klar. K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n baht\u0131n\u0131 yapamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bile taht\u0131n\u0131 yapmaya
\u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r anneler, k\u0131z bebek do\u011far do\u011fmaz koyulurlar i\u015fe\u2026
Nesilden nesile bir kad\u0131ndan di\u011ferine emanettir art\u0131k o sand\u0131k. \u0130\u00e7indekiler, e\u015fya
demenin haks\u0131zl\u0131k oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcrecek kadar konu\u015fkan, kimi zaman keyifli, naif,
kimi zaman huzursuz edici birer hayat arkada\u015f\u0131 olurlar k\u0131zlara. Mahremiyetin y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc
ta\u015f\u0131yan birer hamal. Sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n mahremiyeti ona sahip olan ilk kad\u0131ndan sonra azal\u0131r
ama\u2026 Bir sevdal\u0131k hik\u00e2yesini anlatan mektuplar, \u00e7eyizlik el oyalar\u0131yla i\u015flenmi\u015f naif
i\u015flemeler, saten bir ni\u015fan tuvaletiyle veya sararm\u0131\u015f gelinlikle arz-\u0131 endam eden ilk
heyecanlar, tarihi bilinmeyen foto\u011fraflar, iki ba\u015f i\u00e7in i\u015flenmi\u015f tek yast\u0131k k\u0131l\u0131f\u0131nda
kokusu hat\u0131ra kalan kokular, en \u00e7ok sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n ilk sahibine g\u00f6sterirler kendilerini. Sonra
giderek flula\u015f\u0131rlar. Ama yok olmazlar. Y\u0131rt\u0131k bir foto\u011fraf, kurumu\u015f bir g\u00fcl,
g\u00fcveyeni\u011fi bir duvak, sand\u0131k, leke ve kokusuyla yaralanm\u0131\u015f olsa da hala hayattad\u0131r.
Anneannenin, annenin gen\u00e7lik hik\u00e2yesini anlat\u0131r torununa, k\u0131z\u0131na. Kimi zaman s\u0131rlar\u0131
f\u0131s\u0131ldayan birer yolda\u015f, kimi zaman da\u011f gibi g\u00fcven veren birer dost.O sebeptendir ki,
baz\u0131 kad\u0131nlar, t\u0131pk\u0131 anneanneleri ve anneleri gibi sand\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 kilitleyip, anahtarlar\u0131n\u0131
y\u00fcre\u011finde ta\u015f\u0131rlar. Sand\u0131k i\u00e7i f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fka kimse duymas\u0131n diye. Hep g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnde
olan g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez olur ya, arada a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p g\u00f6z at\u0131l\u0131r sand\u0131\u011fa. Ki an\u0131lar daha a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7eksin, daha
fazla demlensin h\u00fcz\u00fcn, \u00f6zlem ve mutluluk\u2026
Art\u0131k sand\u0131k her a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, bu hik\u00e2yenin kokusu yay\u0131lacakt\u0131r odaya, sinecektir
hik\u00e2yesi duvarlara. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sand\u0131k, hat\u0131ralar\u0131 saklamak i\u00e7in \u00e7eyizi bahane eder. Ara
s\u0131ra sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p elimi yava\u015f\u00e7a i\u00e7ine dald\u0131r\u0131yor, parmaklar\u0131ma d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcmden bir
foto\u011fraf tak\u0131l\u0131yor usulca \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yorum. D\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn masas\u0131nda, anneannem, annem ve ben
\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz aras\u0131nda\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
SEHER AHMET<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
SANDIK KOKUSUGe\u00e7mi\u015fi, eski g\u00fcnleri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde canlan\u0131verdi birden haf\u0131zamdaki o sand\u0131k\u2026Bizim evimizde yatak odas\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fi\u015fmez e\u015fyas\u0131yd\u0131 o ceviz sand\u0131k, ceviz miydi acaba,\u015fimdi karars\u0131z kald\u0131m, daha \u00e7ok me\u015feye yak\u0131nd\u0131 sanki rengi, kal\u0131n bir cila tabakas\u0131ylakapl\u0131yd\u0131 ve el girebilecek gibi anatomik bir tutama\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131. En \u00f6nemlisi de \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131ne kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rabilirdim ne de i\u00e7ine bakabilirdim \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc yasakt\u0131\u2026 Hepi\u00e7indekilerini<\/p>\n